Saturday, March 17, 2007
KP2007MAR16
KP2007MAR16
DISTRIBUTION:
BLOG: blogicalthought.blogspot.com
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
==================================
KP2007MAR16
9:57 NOW
Urine Fast Day 7
Weight 227#
Felt pretty weak and
spaced out this morning.
What a great day! Hot Sunshine.
First Shorts day of the year!
Sunbathed and slept in the
sun on trampoline with dogs.
Felt better afterwards.
Bounced gently on trampoline
for a couple minutes. Good!
Zapped a couple of Blood Pressure
acupuncture points yesterday. Did
a much more thorough job today. I
did all the BP points a long time.
Felt clearer, lighter, more focused.
The points were pretty dead. I should
have thought of that years ago, but I
didn't know I still had a problem there.
[yawn] [yawn] Another area I CAN
control that I let go out while my
attention was on trying to cope with
or improve the hexternal world. [yawn]
10:08 [yawn] Thinking about the psychotics
I'm bound up with now, what high hopes I had
to help them, and my almost complete failure
to reach them in any meaningful way, or help
them improve their lives much at all. [yawn]
Useless to them: they DO NOT WANT HELP.
If you offer it, they insult you. If
you persist, they attack you. [yawn]
[yawn] That pretty much makes it
useless to me too. I love my surfing
on the internet: Truth is an imtimate
communication even from strangers.
I love the pieces falling together into
patterns as I gather more info. I love
being able to predict things correctly
sometimes. I love to see it make sense.
But I miss intimate communication when
I'm dealing with psychotics, who do
NOT WANT intimate communication, and
often go berserk if you give it.
[yawn] [yawn] They remind me of
my parents, who are psychotic too.
I tried for many years to get thru
to them with something real. I
failed utterly. Everyone else did
too, so it's not really "my fault",
but I thought I could rise above
that and succeed anyway. No go.
There was a period in my life,
mostly during the 1980's, when
I hung out with musicians,
bodyworkers, yogis and an
unadvertised spiritual master.
It was so easy to help then.
And so easy to get help too!
Intimacy was the default mode.
[yawn] [yawn] But it was
friends visiting, not family
dwelling together or working
in concert, and I couldn't
keep it together. Having
seen AN amazing Ideal Scene,
I feel like I've been lost in
a cultural desert for decades.
I can't get through to "these"
people, and I don't find the
quality of communication and
inspiration I came to adore.
[yawn] [yawn] Maybe if I
work on myself more, I will
see what I can do to get thru,
or I'll figure out what I can
do to get out, and find a place
I really do belong. There have
been several places I felt very
comfortable, but didn't quite
fit in, or something changed.
I wanted to make my own place,
and invite the people I love.
I still WANT to, but I don't
have the assets I did before.
If there was a place I fit in
and could actually contribute
my talents and knowledge to
people who appreciated them
enough to pass them on, I
[10:35 -10:43 interruption]
would work hard to get myself there.
[yawn] [yawn] Now I don't see where
that is, much less how to get anywhere.
[yawn] I guess that brings me back to
working on myself while I have the option.
[yawn] 10:47 The fast certainly is
putting me through changes. I think
about breaking it several times a day.
But it's not a deep desire, it's a thought.
It doesn't really tempt me, it's a thought.
I'm really glad I started this fast. I've
had a few days of fuzzed out and cranky.
I finally seem to be winding down from my
go-go-go crisis state attitude I've had
for too long now. I'm starting to look
forward optimisticly to what I can
accomplish in this fast. Getting
electro-puncture is a big plus.
I was in worse shape than I thought.
Of course, I wasn't focused on that.
I've been trying to salvage my
situation and survive economically.
I've kind of crapped out on
manipulating the hexternal
world to create my fantasies.
I've had my attention focused on
staying alive before I need money.
I loved posting articles and
session comments re ucp. I
felt useful and it was so
Interesting. I learned so much!
The thrill of seeing people go
uptone with what I taught them
was quite astonishing to me.
I loved doing bodywork, especially
on professional bodyworkers. THEY
love my work. Here they cringe at
the idea, no matter how desperately
they need help. Suicides are hard
to help, no matter how good you are.
I guess that puts my attention back
to improving my own health, physical
and spiritual. OK! I'm doing it now.
11:03 = about 1.0 hour
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
AUTHOR: Til Death Do Us Part . . .
A Basic Education in Total Health:
How to Keep Body and Soul Happily Together
http://www.lulu.com/content/261881
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
*DO* THE UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUS PRACTICE!
*COMPARE* PRESENT TO PAST AND FUTURE!
ENLIGHTENMENT! . . . RIGHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup: alt.ucp
= The UNIVERSITY of CONSCIOUSNESS PULPIT!
UCP IS THE *CRUX* OF RATIONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT IS THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSCIOUSNESS!
*YOU* CAN RAISE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION!
USE THE FREE VIRTUAL WITNESS ONLINE NOW!
ONE SIZE FITS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
INQUIRE WITHIN, ABOUT BECOMING YOURSELF!
PINNACLE PATHS PITCH PERFECT PERIMETERS!
THE PRIZE PATH IS A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL ENLIGHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODHISATTVAS
SINCE THE SECOND MILLENNIUM . . .
ONE BODHISATTVA AT A TIME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
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DISTRIBUTION:
BLOG: blogicalthought.blogspot.com
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
==================================
KP2007MAR16
9:57 NOW
Urine Fast Day 7
Weight 227#
Felt pretty weak and
spaced out this morning.
What a great day! Hot Sunshine.
First Shorts day of the year!
Sunbathed and slept in the
sun on trampoline with dogs.
Felt better afterwards.
Bounced gently on trampoline
for a couple minutes. Good!
Zapped a couple of Blood Pressure
acupuncture points yesterday. Did
a much more thorough job today. I
did all the BP points a long time.
Felt clearer, lighter, more focused.
The points were pretty dead. I should
have thought of that years ago, but I
didn't know I still had a problem there.
[yawn] [yawn] Another area I CAN
control that I let go out while my
attention was on trying to cope with
or improve the hexternal world. [yawn]
10:08 [yawn] Thinking about the psychotics
I'm bound up with now, what high hopes I had
to help them, and my almost complete failure
to reach them in any meaningful way, or help
them improve their lives much at all. [yawn]
Useless to them: they DO NOT WANT HELP.
If you offer it, they insult you. If
you persist, they attack you. [yawn]
[yawn] That pretty much makes it
useless to me too. I love my surfing
on the internet: Truth is an imtimate
communication even from strangers.
I love the pieces falling together into
patterns as I gather more info. I love
being able to predict things correctly
sometimes. I love to see it make sense.
But I miss intimate communication when
I'm dealing with psychotics, who do
NOT WANT intimate communication, and
often go berserk if you give it.
[yawn] [yawn] They remind me of
my parents, who are psychotic too.
I tried for many years to get thru
to them with something real. I
failed utterly. Everyone else did
too, so it's not really "my fault",
but I thought I could rise above
that and succeed anyway. No go.
There was a period in my life,
mostly during the 1980's, when
I hung out with musicians,
bodyworkers, yogis and an
unadvertised spiritual master.
It was so easy to help then.
And so easy to get help too!
Intimacy was the default mode.
[yawn] [yawn] But it was
friends visiting, not family
dwelling together or working
in concert, and I couldn't
keep it together. Having
seen AN amazing Ideal Scene,
I feel like I've been lost in
a cultural desert for decades.
I can't get through to "these"
people, and I don't find the
quality of communication and
inspiration I came to adore.
[yawn] [yawn] Maybe if I
work on myself more, I will
see what I can do to get thru,
or I'll figure out what I can
do to get out, and find a place
I really do belong. There have
been several places I felt very
comfortable, but didn't quite
fit in, or something changed.
I wanted to make my own place,
and invite the people I love.
I still WANT to, but I don't
have the assets I did before.
If there was a place I fit in
and could actually contribute
my talents and knowledge to
people who appreciated them
enough to pass them on, I
[10:35 -10:43 interruption]
would work hard to get myself there.
[yawn] [yawn] Now I don't see where
that is, much less how to get anywhere.
[yawn] I guess that brings me back to
working on myself while I have the option.
[yawn] 10:47 The fast certainly is
putting me through changes. I think
about breaking it several times a day.
But it's not a deep desire, it's a thought.
It doesn't really tempt me, it's a thought.
I'm really glad I started this fast. I've
had a few days of fuzzed out and cranky.
I finally seem to be winding down from my
go-go-go crisis state attitude I've had
for too long now. I'm starting to look
forward optimisticly to what I can
accomplish in this fast. Getting
electro-puncture is a big plus.
I was in worse shape than I thought.
Of course, I wasn't focused on that.
I've been trying to salvage my
situation and survive economically.
I've kind of crapped out on
manipulating the hexternal
world to create my fantasies.
I've had my attention focused on
staying alive before I need money.
I loved posting articles and
session comments re ucp. I
felt useful and it was so
Interesting. I learned so much!
The thrill of seeing people go
uptone with what I taught them
was quite astonishing to me.
I loved doing bodywork, especially
on professional bodyworkers. THEY
love my work. Here they cringe at
the idea, no matter how desperately
they need help. Suicides are hard
to help, no matter how good you are.
I guess that puts my attention back
to improving my own health, physical
and spiritual. OK! I'm doing it now.
11:03 = about 1.0 hour
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
AUTHOR: Til Death Do Us Part . . .
A Basic Education in Total Health:
How to Keep Body and Soul Happily Together
http://www.lulu.com/content/261881
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
*DO* THE UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUS PRACTICE!
*COMPARE* PRESENT TO PAST AND FUTURE!
ENLIGHTENMENT! . . . RIGHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup: alt.ucp
= The UNIVERSITY of CONSCIOUSNESS PULPIT!
UCP IS THE *CRUX* OF RATIONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT IS THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSCIOUSNESS!
*YOU* CAN RAISE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION!
USE THE FREE VIRTUAL WITNESS ONLINE NOW!
ONE SIZE FITS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
INQUIRE WITHIN, ABOUT BECOMING YOURSELF!
PINNACLE PATHS PITCH PERFECT PERIMETERS!
THE PRIZE PATH IS A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL ENLIGHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODHISATTVAS
SINCE THE SECOND MILLENNIUM . . .
ONE BODHISATTVA AT A TIME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
