Monday, April 03, 2006
KP2006APR03
KP2006APR03
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KP2006APR03
1:51 PM NOW
Decompressing. It's been a wild few days.
I was even keel friday. Saturday started
out great. Then I got a desperate call
about our land suit. It didn't sound bad
to me, but I called the lawyer. He sounded
tired and defeated and talked about other
stuff. The rest of the day was OK, but
then I didn't hear from Pat about her
meeting with the lawyer. That really
worried me. Then I noticed April 1 is the
13th anniversary of the day I lost most
of my property and became homeless.
I got the same horrific anxiety and
stomach sensations I did then. I
couldn't sleep all nite. I was watching
it and comparing but it didn't go away.
Finally I zapped my belly button and
most of the physical sensations went.
I still felt ill from the prospect of
losing 25 years of investment in
my place, but at least I wasn't frantic.
I relaxed and was able to sleelp.
That's the only home I have much
reasonable expectation of having.
It's the only place I have that's mine.
I felt sick, but I kept doing stuff anyway.
Went to CSS. It was film and potluck day.
Talked to Holly. Got her email. Visited
some friends and had a good time.
Talked to Pat and Jim. Their attitude
totally changed. The bad news was
their misunderstanding, and the
lawyers sadness was personal, and
had nothing to do with our case.
Our case looks stronger than ever!
Settlement Conference this month!
We're not going to settle unless they
give us everything we sued them for,
so we go to trial In January of 2007.
I talked to the lawyer about how to
handle his personal problem. He
didn't sound wildly interested, but
at least he has some data and
some options now. I don't feel
guilty for not speaking up. I opened
some doors of possibility for him.
Maybe he will walk through some.
I hope things improve for him.
2:18 Thru all of this, I've been
aware, shocked even, by how
much my world and my stability
are based on PREDICTION, which
we all know opens the possibility
of Error. I've been working on
this dream for over 25 years now,
and Thinking it's gone was devastating.
2:23 [yawn] As my attention focused
and fixed on the threats and disasters,
my tone level plummented. When I
corrected some input Error and got
new data, I felt much better again.
But I can see that my tone level is
dependent on my own Prediction.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
At least I kept my focus on improvement
enough to handle the bad physical effects
of my bleak prediction upon mysElf. I can
see that focusing in on one aspect or
possibility makes the other vanish
from your awareness temporarily.
Maintaining both or multiple possible
outcomes at the same time would
minimize [yawn] the tendency to
freak out or gloat about things
which are only possibilities. [yawn]
It makes maintaining
an even keel possible.
[yawn] Either pole of possibility,
catastrophic nightmare or ideal
scene, can have hypnoic power to
absorb more and more attention.
[yawn] [yawn] So the solution is
to keep BOTH possibilities in mind
ALL THE TIME. [yawn] AND keep
WHAT IS in mind at the same time.
[yawn] So you can compare the
possibilities to each other, as well
as to the now. [yawn] 2:50 [yawn]
My emtional response is to reject that.
I WANT to lose myself in what I am doing.
I want to FORGET about all the background
noise and distractions. [yawn] they are
not AESTHETIC. I want to look at listen to
the harmony within, not the traffic without.
2:54 dog break 2:57 [yawn] [yawn]
I WANT to forget about some stuff,
but remember the rest. [yawn]
Now it seems like that is dangerous:
a bit like driving with your eyes closed
so you can see your fantasies clearer!
I LIKE being lost in my fantasies,
I just dont like waking up in the
hospital . . . or not at all.
I guess the idea is to get lost in
the actuality of your now, and
let your fantasies fade away
into the background since
they are not relevant.
[yawn]
I guess above 20 you don't
separate into foreground
and background, or now
and then, as it's always
eternity everywhere!
One step at a time!
3:14 reread 3:21
= about 1.5 hours
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
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KP2006APR03
1:51 PM NOW
Decompressing. It's been a wild few days.
I was even keel friday. Saturday started
out great. Then I got a desperate call
about our land suit. It didn't sound bad
to me, but I called the lawyer. He sounded
tired and defeated and talked about other
stuff. The rest of the day was OK, but
then I didn't hear from Pat about her
meeting with the lawyer. That really
worried me. Then I noticed April 1 is the
13th anniversary of the day I lost most
of my property and became homeless.
I got the same horrific anxiety and
stomach sensations I did then. I
couldn't sleep all nite. I was watching
it and comparing but it didn't go away.
Finally I zapped my belly button and
most of the physical sensations went.
I still felt ill from the prospect of
losing 25 years of investment in
my place, but at least I wasn't frantic.
I relaxed and was able to sleelp.
That's the only home I have much
reasonable expectation of having.
It's the only place I have that's mine.
I felt sick, but I kept doing stuff anyway.
Went to CSS. It was film and potluck day.
Talked to Holly. Got her email. Visited
some friends and had a good time.
Talked to Pat and Jim. Their attitude
totally changed. The bad news was
their misunderstanding, and the
lawyers sadness was personal, and
had nothing to do with our case.
Our case looks stronger than ever!
Settlement Conference this month!
We're not going to settle unless they
give us everything we sued them for,
so we go to trial In January of 2007.
I talked to the lawyer about how to
handle his personal problem. He
didn't sound wildly interested, but
at least he has some data and
some options now. I don't feel
guilty for not speaking up. I opened
some doors of possibility for him.
Maybe he will walk through some.
I hope things improve for him.
2:18 Thru all of this, I've been
aware, shocked even, by how
much my world and my stability
are based on PREDICTION, which
we all know opens the possibility
of Error. I've been working on
this dream for over 25 years now,
and Thinking it's gone was devastating.
2:23 [yawn] As my attention focused
and fixed on the threats and disasters,
my tone level plummented. When I
corrected some input Error and got
new data, I felt much better again.
But I can see that my tone level is
dependent on my own Prediction.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
At least I kept my focus on improvement
enough to handle the bad physical effects
of my bleak prediction upon mysElf. I can
see that focusing in on one aspect or
possibility makes the other vanish
from your awareness temporarily.
Maintaining both or multiple possible
outcomes at the same time would
minimize [yawn] the tendency to
freak out or gloat about things
which are only possibilities. [yawn]
It makes maintaining
an even keel possible.
[yawn] Either pole of possibility,
catastrophic nightmare or ideal
scene, can have hypnoic power to
absorb more and more attention.
[yawn] [yawn] So the solution is
to keep BOTH possibilities in mind
ALL THE TIME. [yawn] AND keep
WHAT IS in mind at the same time.
[yawn] So you can compare the
possibilities to each other, as well
as to the now. [yawn] 2:50 [yawn]
My emtional response is to reject that.
I WANT to lose myself in what I am doing.
I want to FORGET about all the background
noise and distractions. [yawn] they are
not AESTHETIC. I want to look at listen to
the harmony within, not the traffic without.
2:54 dog break 2:57 [yawn] [yawn]
I WANT to forget about some stuff,
but remember the rest. [yawn]
Now it seems like that is dangerous:
a bit like driving with your eyes closed
so you can see your fantasies clearer!
I LIKE being lost in my fantasies,
I just dont like waking up in the
hospital . . . or not at all.
I guess the idea is to get lost in
the actuality of your now, and
let your fantasies fade away
into the background since
they are not relevant.
[yawn]
I guess above 20 you don't
separate into foreground
and background, or now
and then, as it's always
eternity everywhere!
One step at a time!
3:14 reread 3:21
= about 1.5 hours
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
\
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
*DO* THE UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUS PRACTICE!
*COMPARE* PRESENT TO PAST AND FUTURE!
ENLIGHTENMENT! . . . RIGHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup: alt.ucp
= The UNIVERSITY of CONSCIOUSNESS PULPIT!
UCP IS THE *CRUX* OF RATIONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT IS THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSCIOUSNESS!
*YOU* CAN RAISE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION!
USE THE FREE VIRTUAL WITNESS ONLINE NOW!
ONE SIZE FITS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
INQUIRE WITHIN, ABOUT BECOMING YOURSELF!
PINNACLE PATHS PITCH PERFECT PERIMETERS!
THE PRIZE PATH IS A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL ENLIGHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODHISATTVAS
SINCE THE SECOND MILLENNIUM . . .
ONE BODHISATTVA AT A TIME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
To support my intention in action,
$end $ to KP@net-prophet.net
via paypal.com and *DO* UCP!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
