Saturday, March 11, 2006
Re: car crashes and other issues
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DATE: Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:45:27 -0800,
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
THREAD: Re: car crashes and other issues
POSTER: Brahmamurti
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On Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:45:27 -0800,
Brahmamurti wrote:
Dear Brahmamurti: [ucp-alx]
I read ALL of your session reports, even
though I haven't commented many lately.
The last 5 or 6 have been really impressive.
There's been a quantum leap in their quality.
I feel GRIT in them. It all just tumbles out in
a heap of unwashed unvarnished HOW IT IS!
It looks to me like you have come OUT of
Hallucination, and you are *SEEING* the
mad shrieking horror of vivid living death.
No more Thinking about the Symbols of
Secretly Wasted Substitute! Now you are
getting the Effort of Liability. It shows!
Way Cool!
Brahmamurti
> now
> yesterday my x borrowed my car. it broke down on the high way. luckily
> she did actually get to do what she wanted to do. Job interview. in the
> way home it broke down. it needs a new engine. yesterday i was really
> upset for lack of a better word. i was at work when it happend and the
> plan was that she would be back when i was done. since it didn't happen
> this way i decided to "punish" myself by walking home.
Punishing Bodies? = Blame
>it only took 3½
> hours. most people would think that it was insane. but i just don't
> give a shit what people think about it.
Above Secrecy?
Owning your own body?
>i needed it. get things out of
> the system. tho it was very cool moving made me warm. i looked at my
> life.
Way Cool!
>i don't believe in coincidences. well, there may be coincidences
> but even them can you make something of. i felt screwed.
You ARE screwed!
WHO did it to you?
How can who
unscrew you?
>i didn't feel
> that what was happening had anything to do with me.
Detachment and Duality?
>I didn't want it to
> be part of my life. i felt that it kept me from being free because they
> represented things that i had to do. i have to pay my debts. i have to
> maintain the car. i have to do this and do that. and to be able to do
> these things i have to work. very basic stuff. really. somehow it
> bothered me.
Anything you HAVE to do
is a LIABILITY in some way.
>i am not free to go and do whatever i please. i can't just
> leave, pack by bags and leave. it just wouldn't be the right thing to
> do. there are obligations. if i were the ones on the other side i
> wouldn't want me to just leave. yet that was what i felt like doing.
> escapism of some sort. running away from problems created by things i
> didn't really need or want to begin with.
SUBSTITUTE?
> looking back at my life i see however that i at least now am able to
> realize these things. i seem to be more aware of things that i really
> want or don't want.
Coming out of Doubt?
>well it is more about things that i definitely
> don't want than things that i want. i haven't gotten to the part where
> i can focus that much on things that i want. have i felt like that
> before? when in school. i didn't want to but somehow convinced myself
> that it was expected of me and therefore i just did it.
Compulsive behavior.
>i didn't allow myself to question it.
Below Doubt then.
>i didn't allow myself to steer the situation
> away from what i didn't want toward things that i would like more... of
> course the propblem has always been that i didn't know what i really
> did like... so it is pretty hard to steer away if you dont have a point
> where you want to go. so you are stuck in hell because you have no idea
> where heaven is. now: i see that... heaven is within?!
New Perception?
>do i really see
> that or i am really just pretending it? i don't know... maybe it is not
> so important at this moment. i see that i don't want to be selfish...
> at least not from ignorance where only i benefit. this doesn't mean not
> to take care of yourself. you have a body and you have to take care of
> it. pretty much like a car. oh yeah... the car! what is the difference?
> cars need maintainance. but you have just get a new car... if you don't
> take care of your body well at some point it gets ugly and so on. did
> i really need a car? i can go places where i want to go but really i
> dont want to go to so many places. did i get it mostly because of my
> x.. for my x? was it for my ego? i think it was for my ego. i did it
> because my friend had problems. i wanted to help him get rid of the
> cars. but i really didn't need a car. who needs a car anyway?i could
> walk. work wasn't that far away. so it seems that i got the car for
> other reasons. i remember that i was surprised that i wasnt excited
> when i got the car. maybe because i had to take a loan to get it. i
> hate taking loans. i don't care what people say or think about.. to me
> it seems like a big scam. anyways. that car is a goner. may i can get
> my friend to fix it. we hav eto get it first. its far away.
>there is a
> force inside of me working on something. it is like a process going on.
> Pulsating. In waves. Like beach. on: feel bad, sorry, depressed, and
> that likes that are hard to describe in words. Off: feel like there is
> something i should do... something that would make it alright. its like
> a war going on. on/off on/off. Like an alternator switching back and
> forth. go away! i do enjoy it but i want it to go away. stay but go
> away. i feel like crying but at the same time i know it wont make a
> difference if i do. it wont solve the solution. i can't kid myself
> about. i hate not being able to kid myself. it felt nicer to just
> pretend and kid myself. go away! man i feel double. it must be doubt.
> but i don't even care if it is. i feel indifferent aobut it now.
> doesn't seem to make a difference now.
DUALITY?
FLOPPING VALENCES?
Looks to me like you are coming
OUT of Doubt and into Liability.
It's great to see you moving again!
THANKS FOR PLAYING!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
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DATE: Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:45:27 -0800,
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
THREAD: Re: car crashes and other issues
POSTER: Brahmamurti
REPLY-TO: alt.ucp
NEW DISTRIBUTION:
BLOG: blogicalthought.blogspot.com
NEWSGROUPS: alt.ucp,alt.consciousness,alt.meditation,
alt.spiritual.enhancement,alt.religion.scientology,
alt.clearing.technology,alt.self-improve
====================================
On Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:45:27 -0800,
Brahmamurti
Dear Brahmamurti: [ucp-alx]
I read ALL of your session reports, even
though I haven't commented many lately.
The last 5 or 6 have been really impressive.
There's been a quantum leap in their quality.
I feel GRIT in them. It all just tumbles out in
a heap of unwashed unvarnished HOW IT IS!
It looks to me like you have come OUT of
Hallucination, and you are *SEEING* the
mad shrieking horror of vivid living death.
No more Thinking about the Symbols of
Secretly Wasted Substitute! Now you are
getting the Effort of Liability. It shows!
Way Cool!
Brahmamurti
> now
> yesterday my x borrowed my car. it broke down on the high way. luckily
> she did actually get to do what she wanted to do. Job interview. in the
> way home it broke down. it needs a new engine. yesterday i was really
> upset for lack of a better word. i was at work when it happend and the
> plan was that she would be back when i was done. since it didn't happen
> this way i decided to "punish" myself by walking home.
Punishing Bodies? = Blame
>it only took 3½
> hours. most people would think that it was insane. but i just don't
> give a shit what people think about it.
Above Secrecy?
Owning your own body?
>i needed it. get things out of
> the system. tho it was very cool moving made me warm. i looked at my
> life.
Way Cool!
>i don't believe in coincidences. well, there may be coincidences
> but even them can you make something of. i felt screwed.
You ARE screwed!
WHO did it to you?
How can who
unscrew you?
>i didn't feel
> that what was happening had anything to do with me.
Detachment and Duality?
>I didn't want it to
> be part of my life. i felt that it kept me from being free because they
> represented things that i had to do. i have to pay my debts. i have to
> maintain the car. i have to do this and do that. and to be able to do
> these things i have to work. very basic stuff. really. somehow it
> bothered me.
Anything you HAVE to do
is a LIABILITY in some way.
>i am not free to go and do whatever i please. i can't just
> leave, pack by bags and leave. it just wouldn't be the right thing to
> do. there are obligations. if i were the ones on the other side i
> wouldn't want me to just leave. yet that was what i felt like doing.
> escapism of some sort. running away from problems created by things i
> didn't really need or want to begin with.
SUBSTITUTE?
> looking back at my life i see however that i at least now am able to
> realize these things. i seem to be more aware of things that i really
> want or don't want.
Coming out of Doubt?
>well it is more about things that i definitely
> don't want than things that i want. i haven't gotten to the part where
> i can focus that much on things that i want. have i felt like that
> before? when in school. i didn't want to but somehow convinced myself
> that it was expected of me and therefore i just did it.
Compulsive behavior.
>i didn't allow myself to question it.
Below Doubt then.
>i didn't allow myself to steer the situation
> away from what i didn't want toward things that i would like more... of
> course the propblem has always been that i didn't know what i really
> did like... so it is pretty hard to steer away if you dont have a point
> where you want to go. so you are stuck in hell because you have no idea
> where heaven is. now: i see that... heaven is within?!
New Perception?
>do i really see
> that or i am really just pretending it? i don't know... maybe it is not
> so important at this moment. i see that i don't want to be selfish...
> at least not from ignorance where only i benefit. this doesn't mean not
> to take care of yourself. you have a body and you have to take care of
> it. pretty much like a car. oh yeah... the car! what is the difference?
> cars need maintainance. but you have just get a new car... if you don't
> take care of your body well at some point it gets ugly and so on. did
> i really need a car? i can go places where i want to go but really i
> dont want to go to so many places. did i get it mostly because of my
> x.. for my x? was it for my ego? i think it was for my ego. i did it
> because my friend had problems. i wanted to help him get rid of the
> cars. but i really didn't need a car. who needs a car anyway?i could
> walk. work wasn't that far away. so it seems that i got the car for
> other reasons. i remember that i was surprised that i wasnt excited
> when i got the car. maybe because i had to take a loan to get it. i
> hate taking loans. i don't care what people say or think about.. to me
> it seems like a big scam. anyways. that car is a goner. may i can get
> my friend to fix it. we hav eto get it first. its far away.
>there is a
> force inside of me working on something. it is like a process going on.
> Pulsating. In waves. Like beach. on: feel bad, sorry, depressed, and
> that likes that are hard to describe in words. Off: feel like there is
> something i should do... something that would make it alright. its like
> a war going on. on/off on/off. Like an alternator switching back and
> forth. go away! i do enjoy it but i want it to go away. stay but go
> away. i feel like crying but at the same time i know it wont make a
> difference if i do. it wont solve the solution. i can't kid myself
> about. i hate not being able to kid myself. it felt nicer to just
> pretend and kid myself. go away! man i feel double. it must be doubt.
> but i don't even care if it is. i feel indifferent aobut it now.
> doesn't seem to make a difference now.
DUALITY?
FLOPPING VALENCES?
Looks to me like you are coming
OUT of Doubt and into Liability.
It's great to see you moving again!
THANKS FOR PLAYING!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
--- )
\
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
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1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
IF I've helped you already, and
you'd like to help me in return:
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net
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