Saturday, February 11, 2006
Re: KP2006FEB07
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DATE: Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:22:41 -0800
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
THREAD: Re: KP2006FEB07
POSTER: frankds
REPLY TO: alt.ucp
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============================================
On Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:22:41 -0800,
frankds wrote:
. . . snip old headers . . .
>> On Wed, 08 Feb 2006 19:34:50 -0800,
>> frankds wrote:
>>
>> > KONCHOK.PENDAY wrote:
>> >> KP2006FEB07
>> . . . snip distribution. . .
>> >> 8:02 PM NOW
>> >> Been busy! Got a job yesterday!
>>
>> And ever since
>> I've been busy!
frankds
> that's TERRIFIC
>
> and DOING SESSIONS too
>
> GOOD for you!
Thanks!
> as you are not interested in what I have to say
????
Is that why I
encourage
you to post?
Is that why I replied
to you right away with
all my considerations?
> I won't waste any more time here
I'm very sorry you feel your
time here has been a waste!
What would I have to do
to prove I am interested
in your viewpoints? . . .
Write back and say I compared
where I was [= breathing out] to
my NOW [= breathing in], so now
I'm hexterior with full perception?
Would that validate your indication?
And make you feel appreciated?
Would you stay then?
WHY are you here?
Did you hexpect everyone to
immediately accept everything
you say, with profuse thanks for
your overwhelming wisdom?
They don't do that for me!
Even you don't do that!
It seems to me you need to
keep repeating your message
for people to slowly duplicate.
That's the only way I have been
able to make progress in public.
> time to say ADIOS
OK.
What you do
is up to you!
Thanks for stopping Bye!
> best wishes to you
> frank
THANKS!
Best Wishes to You!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
--- )
\
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
TO $*ELF FUN*D KP'S MAD GAME:
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net
VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
>> > THAT"S *NOW*?
>>
>> It is when my attention is on it.
>> It all depends on when Then is.
>>
>> When I wrote that,
>> now I was busy,
>> ever since I
>> got a job.
>>
>> > how can your NOW be *YESTERDAY*?
>>
>> Whenever my attention is on yesterday, or
>> I'm looking at the reason I'm so busy today.
>>
>> How can HERE be Berlin?
>> When Berlin is right Here
>> on earth, as opposed
>> to some other planet.
>>
>> > how can your NOW be anything but NOW
>>
>> How can I possibly satisfy you when my now
>> at the beginning of my reply is gone but not
>> forgotten in the middle of my reply sentence?
>>
>> If my NOW is short enough, I can't talk about it
>> at all because it's gone before words can arise.
>>
>> If it's too long, it's too much of a generality.
>>
>> My now is what I consider my now to be.
>> I see that I use a fuzzy time frame which
>> probably shortens as one goes uptone.
>>
>> I think you get uptone by
>> working with the now
>> that you have now!
>>
>> If that keeps changing,
>> something is happening.
>>
>> > you can compare PAST to PAST or FUTURE
>>
>> Yes!
>>
>> Very productive if that's
>> what your attention is on.
>>
>> > I pointed that out on the list
>> >
>> > Justin and Alex didn't GET *IT*
>>
>> OK!
>>
>> Maybe we don't see the world
>> the way you do because we
>> are in much different places
>> or much different tones.
>>
>> > OOPS!....did YOU?
>>
>> I understand what you mean,
>> but I still follow my attention.
>>
>> When my world is so in focus
>> that my now changes every
>> 1/10 of a second, I reply in
>> a much different manner.
>>
>> I HUGELY enjoy that,
>> but it happens rarely,
>> usually when tripping.
>>
>> If UCP gets me
>> there too . . .
>> WAY COOL!
>>
>> > their sessions, although interesting
>> >
>> > never COMPARE past or future to *NOW*
>>
>> OK!
>>
>> And yet they are making progress.
>> Their NOWs are visibly changing.
>>
>> Of course we don't do UCP as efficiently
>> as you did before you stopped. As you
>> go uptone, you do ucp better all the time.
>> A psychotic does almost everything
>> wrong with UCP . . . and yet if he
>> keeps trying, he will make gains!
>>
>> And he will then do
>> ucp much better too!
>>
>> > WHAT IS *NOW*?
>>
>> What your attention is on.
>>
>> > within the last few weeks or years....????
>>
>> Since 9-11.
>> Since my divorce.
>> Since we talked.
>> When I'm eating.
>> While I'm alive.
>> After the Universe
>> was Created
>> A.D.
>> etc.
>>
>> When was the last
>> significant change
>> is the aspect of life
>> you are hexamining
>> . . . NOW?
>>
>> > or just NOW...this moment
>>
>> That's the most focused!
>> What is your attention on?
>> HOW LONG IS A MOMENT?
>>
>> > can no-one not SEE THAT??
>>
>> I see what my attention is on,
>> because that's what I look at.
>>
>> > the TEACHER gets 30 lashes
>>
>> Are those the ties that bind
>> . . . or the crack of the whip
>> painfully ending in ashes?
>>
>> Santa must have double
>> crossed my silver order.
>>
>> > that's *YOU*
>>
>> That was me then,
>> but now I'm newer.
>>
>> Surely you noticed!
>>
>> > frank
>>
>> Compared to the old Frank,
>> NOW you are much more
>> gregarious, ever since
>> you announced your
>> coming departure!
>>
>> WAY COOL!
>>
>> THANKS FOR WRITING!
>>
>>
>> O
>> --- )
>> \
>>
. . . snip sig . . .
>> >> Rebuilding a fence for a very nice lady.
>> >> I went and looked at it and we chatted.
>> >> Way Cool! Her priorities are perfect!
>> >>
>> >> She wants it done the way I want
>> >> to do it. So interesting that I've been
>> >> spending my time doing sessions and
>> >> commenting others sessions, and haven't
>> >> put much attention on money, even tho
>> >> I am really jammed up for it. I've got $5
>> >> in my wallet, change under the seat, <1/8
>> >> of a tank, and 2 gallons of gas in a jug.
>> >> I can get to town on that, and maybeback,
>> >> since a round trip is about 1/4+ of a tank?
>> >>
>> >> I went to the CSS site and read Tom's
>> >> essay on Quantum Mechanics and
>> >> Materialism. He's interested in the
>> >> hot topics that I am, but he's been
>> >> conned by the quantum bullshit,
>> >> and his papers embodies the
>> >> usual ancient lies and errors,
>> >> to catastrophic conclusions.
>> >>
>> >> I so want to show him the way,
>> >> but he's SO COMMITED to the
>> >> quantum errors I wonder if he
>> >> can even imagine another
>> >> possibility hexists. I got really
>> >> hexcited last nite reading him
>> >> and imagining him lighting up
>> >> and with a religious conversion
>> >> when he finally *SEES* GRAVITY!
>> >>
>> >> I want to film the encounter
>> >> and sell it as a teaching tool!
>> >>
>> >> Maybe I can be more $ucce$$ful
>> >> in physics than in metaphysics?
>> >>
>> >> The question is whether Tom is
>> >> capable of letting go of quantum
>> >> bullshit to gain real understanding.
>> >>
>> >> I'm rooting for his coming EUREKA!
>> >>
>> >> Anyway, he'll be there next sunday
>> >> and I'll see how far i can get with him.
>> >> If he wakes up on physics, maybe they
>> >> will look at the UCPlot and UCPractice!
>> >>
>> >> CSS looks like the most fertile soil
>> >> I've seen to grow new paradigms!
>> >> I like the people personally. They
>> >> are intelligent and sincere and are
>> >> DOING something to sElf advance!
>> >>
>> >> WAY COOL!
>> >>
>> >> They are doing something positive,
>> >> and show signs of sElf advancement.
>> >>
>> >> I'm hoping to get them to hexamine,
>> >> not just physics, but the UCPlot and
>> >> UCP, through testing and comparing
>> >> with their other meditation practice.
>> >>
>> >> [wandering through session
>> >> and posting comments and
>> >> continuations as it strikes me]
>> >>
>> >> [yawn]
>> >>
>> >> [yawn ] I was thinking today about
>> >> how easy, natural and perfect this job
>> >> was to get. I wasn't thinking much
>> >> about making money at all. I was
>> >> thinking about what I wanted to
>> >> think about. It was a referral from
>> >> a friend [another urine drinking
>> >> carpenter genius, but one who
>> >> has too much work to do now]
>> >> . . . who I went to talk to . . .
>> >> because I like talking to him.
>> >> He found the mad geniusIsis
>> >> urine drinking doctor for us.
>> >>
>> >> I guess it's about trusting the universe.
>> >> 8:21 As long as I am projecting the
>> >> urgent need for cash now, or else,
>> >> I'm uptight and not enjoying myself
>> >> much. Maybe the universe picks
>> >> that up. Anyway, I'm doing what
>> >> I'm doing, and things do seem to
>> >> be shifting in my universe. I keep
>> >> feeling that my hysteria about no
>> >> money was somehow creating no
>> >> money. That wasn't my intention,
>> >> but maybe was my result. This
>> >> job has some complications too,
>> >> but so far they are rather minor.
>> >>
>> >> 8:33 recycle 8:45
>> >>
>> >> One of the things the doctor
>> >> got me thinking about was
>> >> synchronicity or coincidence.
>> >>
>> >> Although she managed to do
>> >> the worst possible thing at
>> >> the perfect synchronistime,
>> >> opportunities were here
>> >> although sadly scorned!
>> >>
>> >> But if you get saner and
>> >> see your now better,
>> >> you DO better too!
>> >>
>> >> I'm still kind of surprised
>> >> that the last few days
>> >> have gone so well.
>> >>
>> >> I guess I was hexpecting
>> >> more of the same old shit.
>> >>
>> >> I followed my own
>> >> advice for a change,
>> >> and so far it's working
>> >> out much better for me.
>> >>
>> >> Maybe I will listen to
>> >> myself more often! :-)
>> >>
>> >> [yawn] [yawn] 9:07
>> >>
>> >> 9:14 roaming thoughts
>> >>
>> >> might be's: [yawn]
>> >> new understanding with CSS
>> >> [yawn] they are looking for
>> >> what I am teaching, but they
>> >> aren't looking to me for it, yet.
>> >>
>> >> I really want to tell them,
>> >> but I'm afraid of insulting
>> >> them or their errors of
>> >> misunderstanding and
>> >> getting them upset
>> >> and defensive.
>> >>
>> >> That's not my intention.
>> >>
>> >> I want to give them
>> >> new understanding.
>> >>
>> >> Can they have it?
>> >> I don't know.
>> >> I'll find out!
>> >>
>> >> 9:39 back from wandering
>> >> 9:56 thoughts still wandering
>> >> to possible futures for me and
>> >> the games I play . . . or want to.
>> >>
>> >> 10:07 Feel calm and centered.
>> >> Attention wandering curiously:
>> >> I guess I don't have to complain!
>> >>
>> >> Reread and add 10:26
>> >>
>> >> time = 2:24 includes wandering
>> >> post 10:35
>> >>
>> >> THANKS FOR READING!
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> O
>> >> --- )
>> >> \
>> >>
>>
>> . . . snip sig . . .
>
DATE: Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:22:41 -0800
NEWSGROUP: alt.ucp
THREAD: Re: KP2006FEB07
POSTER: frankds
REPLY TO: alt.ucp
NEW DISTRIBUTION:
BLOG: blogicalthought.blogspot.com
NEWSGROUPS: alt.ucp,alt.consciousness,alt.meditation,
alt.spiritual.enhancement,alt.religion.scientology,
alt.clearing.technology,alt.self-improve
============================================
On Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:22:41 -0800,
frankds
. . . snip old headers . . .
>> On Wed, 08 Feb 2006 19:34:50 -0800,
>> frankds
>>
>> > KONCHOK.PENDAY wrote:
>> >> KP2006FEB07
>> . . . snip distribution. . .
>> >> 8:02 PM NOW
>> >> Been busy! Got a job yesterday!
>>
>> And ever since
>> I've been busy!
frankds
> that's TERRIFIC
>
> and DOING SESSIONS too
>
> GOOD for you!
Thanks!
> as you are not interested in what I have to say
????
Is that why I
encourage
you to post?
Is that why I replied
to you right away with
all my considerations?
> I won't waste any more time here
I'm very sorry you feel your
time here has been a waste!
What would I have to do
to prove I am interested
in your viewpoints? . . .
Write back and say I compared
where I was [= breathing out] to
my NOW [= breathing in], so now
I'm hexterior with full perception?
Would that validate your indication?
And make you feel appreciated?
Would you stay then?
WHY are you here?
Did you hexpect everyone to
immediately accept everything
you say, with profuse thanks for
your overwhelming wisdom?
They don't do that for me!
Even you don't do that!
It seems to me you need to
keep repeating your message
for people to slowly duplicate.
That's the only way I have been
able to make progress in public.
> time to say ADIOS
OK.
What you do
is up to you!
Thanks for stopping Bye!
> best wishes to you
> frank
THANKS!
Best Wishes to You!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
--- )
\
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
TO $*ELF FUN*D KP'S MAD GAME:
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net
VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
>> > THAT"S *NOW*?
>>
>> It is when my attention is on it.
>> It all depends on when Then is.
>>
>> When I wrote that,
>> now I was busy,
>> ever since I
>> got a job.
>>
>> > how can your NOW be *YESTERDAY*?
>>
>> Whenever my attention is on yesterday, or
>> I'm looking at the reason I'm so busy today.
>>
>> How can HERE be Berlin?
>> When Berlin is right Here
>> on earth, as opposed
>> to some other planet.
>>
>> > how can your NOW be anything but NOW
>>
>> How can I possibly satisfy you when my now
>> at the beginning of my reply is gone but not
>> forgotten in the middle of my reply sentence?
>>
>> If my NOW is short enough, I can't talk about it
>> at all because it's gone before words can arise.
>>
>> If it's too long, it's too much of a generality.
>>
>> My now is what I consider my now to be.
>> I see that I use a fuzzy time frame which
>> probably shortens as one goes uptone.
>>
>> I think you get uptone by
>> working with the now
>> that you have now!
>>
>> If that keeps changing,
>> something is happening.
>>
>> > you can compare PAST to PAST or FUTURE
>>
>> Yes!
>>
>> Very productive if that's
>> what your attention is on.
>>
>> > I pointed that out on the list
>> >
>> > Justin and Alex didn't GET *IT*
>>
>> OK!
>>
>> Maybe we don't see the world
>> the way you do because we
>> are in much different places
>> or much different tones.
>>
>> > OOPS!....did YOU?
>>
>> I understand what you mean,
>> but I still follow my attention.
>>
>> When my world is so in focus
>> that my now changes every
>> 1/10 of a second, I reply in
>> a much different manner.
>>
>> I HUGELY enjoy that,
>> but it happens rarely,
>> usually when tripping.
>>
>> If UCP gets me
>> there too . . .
>> WAY COOL!
>>
>> > their sessions, although interesting
>> >
>> > never COMPARE past or future to *NOW*
>>
>> OK!
>>
>> And yet they are making progress.
>> Their NOWs are visibly changing.
>>
>> Of course we don't do UCP as efficiently
>> as you did before you stopped. As you
>> go uptone, you do ucp better all the time.
>> A psychotic does almost everything
>> wrong with UCP . . . and yet if he
>> keeps trying, he will make gains!
>>
>> And he will then do
>> ucp much better too!
>>
>> > WHAT IS *NOW*?
>>
>> What your attention is on.
>>
>> > within the last few weeks or years....????
>>
>> Since 9-11.
>> Since my divorce.
>> Since we talked.
>> When I'm eating.
>> While I'm alive.
>> After the Universe
>> was Created
>> A.D.
>> etc.
>>
>> When was the last
>> significant change
>> is the aspect of life
>> you are hexamining
>> . . . NOW?
>>
>> > or just NOW...this moment
>>
>> That's the most focused!
>> What is your attention on?
>> HOW LONG IS A MOMENT?
>>
>> > can no-one not SEE THAT??
>>
>> I see what my attention is on,
>> because that's what I look at.
>>
>> > the TEACHER gets 30 lashes
>>
>> Are those the ties that bind
>> . . . or the crack of the whip
>> painfully ending in ashes?
>>
>> Santa must have double
>> crossed my silver order.
>>
>> > that's *YOU*
>>
>> That was me then,
>> but now I'm newer.
>>
>> Surely you noticed!
>>
>> > frank
>>
>> Compared to the old Frank,
>> NOW you are much more
>> gregarious, ever since
>> you announced your
>> coming departure!
>>
>> WAY COOL!
>>
>> THANKS FOR WRITING!
>>
>>
>> O
>> --- )
>> \
>>
. . . snip sig . . .
>> >> Rebuilding a fence for a very nice lady.
>> >> I went and looked at it and we chatted.
>> >> Way Cool! Her priorities are perfect!
>> >>
>> >> She wants it done the way I want
>> >> to do it. So interesting that I've been
>> >> spending my time doing sessions and
>> >> commenting others sessions, and haven't
>> >> put much attention on money, even tho
>> >> I am really jammed up for it. I've got $5
>> >> in my wallet, change under the seat, <1/8
>> >> of a tank, and 2 gallons of gas in a jug.
>> >> I can get to town on that, and maybeback,
>> >> since a round trip is about 1/4+ of a tank?
>> >>
>> >> I went to the CSS site and read Tom's
>> >> essay on Quantum Mechanics and
>> >> Materialism. He's interested in the
>> >> hot topics that I am, but he's been
>> >> conned by the quantum bullshit,
>> >> and his papers embodies the
>> >> usual ancient lies and errors,
>> >> to catastrophic conclusions.
>> >>
>> >> I so want to show him the way,
>> >> but he's SO COMMITED to the
>> >> quantum errors I wonder if he
>> >> can even imagine another
>> >> possibility hexists. I got really
>> >> hexcited last nite reading him
>> >> and imagining him lighting up
>> >> and with a religious conversion
>> >> when he finally *SEES* GRAVITY!
>> >>
>> >> I want to film the encounter
>> >> and sell it as a teaching tool!
>> >>
>> >> Maybe I can be more $ucce$$ful
>> >> in physics than in metaphysics?
>> >>
>> >> The question is whether Tom is
>> >> capable of letting go of quantum
>> >> bullshit to gain real understanding.
>> >>
>> >> I'm rooting for his coming EUREKA!
>> >>
>> >> Anyway, he'll be there next sunday
>> >> and I'll see how far i can get with him.
>> >> If he wakes up on physics, maybe they
>> >> will look at the UCPlot and UCPractice!
>> >>
>> >> CSS looks like the most fertile soil
>> >> I've seen to grow new paradigms!
>> >> I like the people personally. They
>> >> are intelligent and sincere and are
>> >> DOING something to sElf advance!
>> >>
>> >> WAY COOL!
>> >>
>> >> They are doing something positive,
>> >> and show signs of sElf advancement.
>> >>
>> >> I'm hoping to get them to hexamine,
>> >> not just physics, but the UCPlot and
>> >> UCP, through testing and comparing
>> >> with their other meditation practice.
>> >>
>> >> [wandering through session
>> >> and posting comments and
>> >> continuations as it strikes me]
>> >>
>> >> [yawn]
>> >>
>> >> [yawn ] I was thinking today about
>> >> how easy, natural and perfect this job
>> >> was to get. I wasn't thinking much
>> >> about making money at all. I was
>> >> thinking about what I wanted to
>> >> think about. It was a referral from
>> >> a friend [another urine drinking
>> >> carpenter genius, but one who
>> >> has too much work to do now]
>> >> . . . who I went to talk to . . .
>> >> because I like talking to him.
>> >> He found the mad geniusIsis
>> >> urine drinking doctor for us.
>> >>
>> >> I guess it's about trusting the universe.
>> >> 8:21 As long as I am projecting the
>> >> urgent need for cash now, or else,
>> >> I'm uptight and not enjoying myself
>> >> much. Maybe the universe picks
>> >> that up. Anyway, I'm doing what
>> >> I'm doing, and things do seem to
>> >> be shifting in my universe. I keep
>> >> feeling that my hysteria about no
>> >> money was somehow creating no
>> >> money. That wasn't my intention,
>> >> but maybe was my result. This
>> >> job has some complications too,
>> >> but so far they are rather minor.
>> >>
>> >> 8:33 recycle 8:45
>> >>
>> >> One of the things the doctor
>> >> got me thinking about was
>> >> synchronicity or coincidence.
>> >>
>> >> Although she managed to do
>> >> the worst possible thing at
>> >> the perfect synchronistime,
>> >> opportunities were here
>> >> although sadly scorned!
>> >>
>> >> But if you get saner and
>> >> see your now better,
>> >> you DO better too!
>> >>
>> >> I'm still kind of surprised
>> >> that the last few days
>> >> have gone so well.
>> >>
>> >> I guess I was hexpecting
>> >> more of the same old shit.
>> >>
>> >> I followed my own
>> >> advice for a change,
>> >> and so far it's working
>> >> out much better for me.
>> >>
>> >> Maybe I will listen to
>> >> myself more often! :-)
>> >>
>> >> [yawn] [yawn] 9:07
>> >>
>> >> 9:14 roaming thoughts
>> >>
>> >> might be's: [yawn]
>> >> new understanding with CSS
>> >> [yawn] they are looking for
>> >> what I am teaching, but they
>> >> aren't looking to me for it, yet.
>> >>
>> >> I really want to tell them,
>> >> but I'm afraid of insulting
>> >> them or their errors of
>> >> misunderstanding and
>> >> getting them upset
>> >> and defensive.
>> >>
>> >> That's not my intention.
>> >>
>> >> I want to give them
>> >> new understanding.
>> >>
>> >> Can they have it?
>> >> I don't know.
>> >> I'll find out!
>> >>
>> >> 9:39 back from wandering
>> >> 9:56 thoughts still wandering
>> >> to possible futures for me and
>> >> the games I play . . . or want to.
>> >>
>> >> 10:07 Feel calm and centered.
>> >> Attention wandering curiously:
>> >> I guess I don't have to complain!
>> >>
>> >> Reread and add 10:26
>> >>
>> >> time = 2:24 includes wandering
>> >> post 10:35
>> >>
>> >> THANKS FOR READING!
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> O
>> >> --- )
>> >> \
>> >>
>>
>> . . . snip sig . . .
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