Monday, February 06, 2006
KP2006FEB05
KP2006FEB05
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KP2006FEB05
Sunday:
8:14 PM Interesting day. Went to CSS.
Less people today. Maybe 20 to 25?
Filmed interview of zen priest Susan ????
I like her. Then I lucked out, it was
pot luck sunday! I got eats! I tried to
talk physics to several people, but even
Joel deferred to their physicist, who
was not here today. He'll be back next
week. I plan to go back. From the web
site, I overestimated the scientific
sophistication of the group at large.
It's a meditation group to them.
They've decided they can't understand
physics and don't want to attempt it.
That's my point of course, but no go.
I was all hexcited about my work in the
three points on their web page but no
one wanted to talk in detail about even
the first. They are relying on "experts".
I still like the people. They are calm and
graceful and a pleasure to talk to. Joel's
wife Jennifer is a delight. 8:43 rambling
to myself about the day. High hopes and
hexpectations. Nice interractions! But
not the interest I was hoping for. I've
talked a lot on the phone with Captain
Frank, when my tone was higher than
his, AND after he soared out of site.
I've seen him make huge changes in
beingness. And I haven't talked to
him in at least six months, maybe
a year or more. I don't remember.
When I last talked to him, I think
he was around tone 6 or 8 ?
I think Frank HAS what most of
the CSS people are looking for,
much more than versa vices.
[thoughts] [yawn] [yawn]
several reactions to that.
One, I'm disappointed.
On the other hand,
there IS Frank
reminding me
to DO UCP.
OK!
I can accept that.
I tell others enough.
[yawn] [yawn]
on the other hand it is scary.
reread [yawn] [yawn] 9:02
[yawn] [yawn] Susan the
zen priest spent SO many
years sitting to accomplish
some of the things I see
ucpeons easily demonstrate
in 100 hours of ucp! [yawn]
I think where they are trying
to finally go UCP will not take
them. I'm certainly not there,
and Frank is still Looking for
or at something, but as far as
I can see, UCP is the hexpress
route to the end of duality.
After that, you're on your own!
[yawn] 9:11 That's what's scary.
I keep looking for people who are
playing the same game as ucpeons.
Many asire to, and have positive
results and effects. CSS is quite
refreshing! I'm still interested in
finding out more about their actual
techniques and stages to see if they
correlate with the UCPlot. I like to
investigate lots of new things to
compare with UCP, but I'm not
giving up on my UCPractice.
The more things I look at
the more UCP looks like
THE hexPREssway hOMe.
9:20 = 1:06 hours
reread and spell/edit 9:27
[yawn] 9:29 I guess I'm not
done after all. [yawn] [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] I feel a bit
embarrassed that Frank is
the one to demonstrate the
final result of UCP first, but
I've been a bit of a retard
when I comes to myself.
I learned how to do UCP
working with others, not
on myself. It was easier
for me to see that way.
I did the intellectual analysis in
a way that was Dissassociated
from my own pain and horror.
It took Gene Goodreau to
PROVE that UCP works solo.
At least the CSS didn't start
with the idea you needed
someone else to witness!
[yawn] They had that right
from the very start, where
it took me very a long time.
[yawn] others had to
prove it to me before
I believed it myself.
[yawn] [yawn]
Thank Gene I had others to
show me where I might be:
so I had to compare to that!
Thank Frank for showing that
UCP can indeed be finished!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 9:47
s/g I'm missing here [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] scary [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] I guess I'm
afraid UCP *IS* the best
route to sentience,
and we have a
fuckup like me
in charge.
[yawn]
I'm trying to get a
whole planet sane,
and I can't even
keep up with
Captain Frank.
That scares me!
On the other hand,
[yawn] 9:59
[yawn] I hexplored
some new territory,
AND I did a session!
[yawn] Since I looked
at not being interested
in session . . . it was
easy to start this one.
[yawn] not so easy
to finish though [yawn]
[yawn] I guess that's
another reason I was
reluctant to start . . .
I don't want to bog
down and quite [yawn]
especially [yawn] as I'm
posting in public.
I always/usually have that
not-quite-fear about starting
a session. I don't know what
I will find out or how it will look.
10:07 [attacked by hungry dog]
[ate food, sat in hot tub
thinking about this stuff]
NEXT DAY = FEB 6 @ 10:13
[yawn] 10:13 didn't feel
like I ever quite finished
[yawn] [yawn] scary
keeps coming up again
[yawn] I feel like I'm on the
spot and have to perform well
or I will make a fool of myself.
Of course I've worked long and
hard to put myself on this very spot!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 10:29
This is my huge chance to shine
so brightly it dazzles everyone
else into rapt sElf-hexamination!
[yawn] And I'm worried about
discovering something ugly.
[yawn] I suppose I should be
worried that I will *NOT* find
something ugly about myself
. . . that I can let go of now!
[yawn]
How else will I improve?
[yawn] Now I feel I should
look for something ugly . . .
so I can get rid of it!
How stupid is that! [laughs]
[yawn] [yawn] not sure
where I am in this session
NOW: [yawn] [yawn]
trying to end this session?
AH! [yawn] That makes sense.
[yawn] [yawn] I guess I feel
somewhat AT RISK in session.
I don't know what is happening!
I don't know hexactly where I am.
I not sure where I want to go!
[yawn] That's a bit scary
. . . call it uncomfortable.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I guess I want to do sessions,
because I want to raise my
awareness. But when I am
in session, I want to FINISH
on a WIN and get out of the
session . . . as though it was
OK to STOP looking now, and
then I won't feel so threatened
by . . . WHAT . . . [UNKNOWN]?
[yawn] That sounds crazy when
I look at it. I stop looking when
I'm not in session? Or I just stop
writing it down and posting it, so
my own stupidity stays "private".
That's crazy right there!
A guy in my position doing what
I do doesn't have any privacy,
and not doing sessions is
hardly a private affair!
IT SHOWS NO CHANGE!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I guess I've put myself
in a position where the
only thing I can do is go
forward, or I'll make a
total ass of myself by
failing to heed my own
universal advice to all.
WAY COOL!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I'm not really comfortable
in that position, but I see
that's where I need to be.
[yawn] [yawn]
There's some idea here that
it's OK to be less aware some
times than others. Yes, in the
physical world, danger is not
always present and you can
sleep sometimes, and not pay
much attention when awake.
Then there are those other times
when if you don't pay FULL attention
RIGHT NOW you will be die quite quickly.
Just because your physical life is not
immediately threatened is not reason
to be LESS AWARE. It just means you
have more freedom to put your attention
11:12 on whatever you like.
If you choose to lower or
constrict your attention
you diminish your life!
So if I'm going to be nervous,
I should be nervous ALL the
time. The physical universe
intermittently DEMANDS my
attention, and I give it. On
the other hand, my personal
universe ALLOWS hexploration
any time I get interested in me.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 11:21
[dog break + snack]
11:44
keep thinking about McKeon
and Kuhn, who seems like a
student of his.
google work to check 12:21
I can't find any personal
relationship, though their
work has obvious similarity
12:22
I seem to have hextroverted
into curious communication,
so I guess this session is
over for now.
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
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KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
TO $*ELF FUN*D KP'S MAD GAME:
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net
VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
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BLOG: blogicalthought.blogspot.com
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KP2006FEB05
Sunday:
8:14 PM Interesting day. Went to CSS.
Less people today. Maybe 20 to 25?
Filmed interview of zen priest Susan ????
I like her. Then I lucked out, it was
pot luck sunday! I got eats! I tried to
talk physics to several people, but even
Joel deferred to their physicist, who
was not here today. He'll be back next
week. I plan to go back. From the web
site, I overestimated the scientific
sophistication of the group at large.
It's a meditation group to them.
They've decided they can't understand
physics and don't want to attempt it.
That's my point of course, but no go.
I was all hexcited about my work in the
three points on their web page but no
one wanted to talk in detail about even
the first. They are relying on "experts".
I still like the people. They are calm and
graceful and a pleasure to talk to. Joel's
wife Jennifer is a delight. 8:43 rambling
to myself about the day. High hopes and
hexpectations. Nice interractions! But
not the interest I was hoping for. I've
talked a lot on the phone with Captain
Frank, when my tone was higher than
his, AND after he soared out of site.
I've seen him make huge changes in
beingness. And I haven't talked to
him in at least six months, maybe
a year or more. I don't remember.
When I last talked to him, I think
he was around tone 6 or 8 ?
I think Frank HAS what most of
the CSS people are looking for,
much more than versa vices.
[thoughts] [yawn] [yawn]
several reactions to that.
One, I'm disappointed.
On the other hand,
there IS Frank
reminding me
to DO UCP.
OK!
I can accept that.
I tell others enough.
[yawn] [yawn]
on the other hand it is scary.
reread [yawn] [yawn] 9:02
[yawn] [yawn] Susan the
zen priest spent SO many
years sitting to accomplish
some of the things I see
ucpeons easily demonstrate
in 100 hours of ucp! [yawn]
I think where they are trying
to finally go UCP will not take
them. I'm certainly not there,
and Frank is still Looking for
or at something, but as far as
I can see, UCP is the hexpress
route to the end of duality.
After that, you're on your own!
[yawn] 9:11 That's what's scary.
I keep looking for people who are
playing the same game as ucpeons.
Many asire to, and have positive
results and effects. CSS is quite
refreshing! I'm still interested in
finding out more about their actual
techniques and stages to see if they
correlate with the UCPlot. I like to
investigate lots of new things to
compare with UCP, but I'm not
giving up on my UCPractice.
The more things I look at
the more UCP looks like
THE hexPREssway hOMe.
9:20 = 1:06 hours
reread and spell/edit 9:27
[yawn] 9:29 I guess I'm not
done after all. [yawn] [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] I feel a bit
embarrassed that Frank is
the one to demonstrate the
final result of UCP first, but
I've been a bit of a retard
when I comes to myself.
I learned how to do UCP
working with others, not
on myself. It was easier
for me to see that way.
I did the intellectual analysis in
a way that was Dissassociated
from my own pain and horror.
It took Gene Goodreau to
PROVE that UCP works solo.
At least the CSS didn't start
with the idea you needed
someone else to witness!
[yawn] They had that right
from the very start, where
it took me very a long time.
[yawn] others had to
prove it to me before
I believed it myself.
[yawn] [yawn]
Thank Gene I had others to
show me where I might be:
so I had to compare to that!
Thank Frank for showing that
UCP can indeed be finished!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 9:47
s/g I'm missing here [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] scary [yawn]
[yawn] [yawn] I guess I'm
afraid UCP *IS* the best
route to sentience,
and we have a
fuckup like me
in charge.
[yawn]
I'm trying to get a
whole planet sane,
and I can't even
keep up with
Captain Frank.
That scares me!
On the other hand,
[yawn] 9:59
[yawn] I hexplored
some new territory,
AND I did a session!
[yawn] Since I looked
at not being interested
in session . . . it was
easy to start this one.
[yawn] not so easy
to finish though [yawn]
[yawn] I guess that's
another reason I was
reluctant to start . . .
I don't want to bog
down and quite [yawn]
especially [yawn] as I'm
posting in public.
I always/usually have that
not-quite-fear about starting
a session. I don't know what
I will find out or how it will look.
10:07 [attacked by hungry dog]
[ate food, sat in hot tub
thinking about this stuff]
NEXT DAY = FEB 6 @ 10:13
[yawn] 10:13 didn't feel
like I ever quite finished
[yawn] [yawn] scary
keeps coming up again
[yawn] I feel like I'm on the
spot and have to perform well
or I will make a fool of myself.
Of course I've worked long and
hard to put myself on this very spot!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 10:29
This is my huge chance to shine
so brightly it dazzles everyone
else into rapt sElf-hexamination!
[yawn] And I'm worried about
discovering something ugly.
[yawn] I suppose I should be
worried that I will *NOT* find
something ugly about myself
. . . that I can let go of now!
[yawn]
How else will I improve?
[yawn] Now I feel I should
look for something ugly . . .
so I can get rid of it!
How stupid is that! [laughs]
[yawn] [yawn] not sure
where I am in this session
NOW: [yawn] [yawn]
trying to end this session?
AH! [yawn] That makes sense.
[yawn] [yawn] I guess I feel
somewhat AT RISK in session.
I don't know what is happening!
I don't know hexactly where I am.
I not sure where I want to go!
[yawn] That's a bit scary
. . . call it uncomfortable.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I guess I want to do sessions,
because I want to raise my
awareness. But when I am
in session, I want to FINISH
on a WIN and get out of the
session . . . as though it was
OK to STOP looking now, and
then I won't feel so threatened
by . . . WHAT . . . [UNKNOWN]?
[yawn] That sounds crazy when
I look at it. I stop looking when
I'm not in session? Or I just stop
writing it down and posting it, so
my own stupidity stays "private".
That's crazy right there!
A guy in my position doing what
I do doesn't have any privacy,
and not doing sessions is
hardly a private affair!
IT SHOWS NO CHANGE!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I guess I've put myself
in a position where the
only thing I can do is go
forward, or I'll make a
total ass of myself by
failing to heed my own
universal advice to all.
WAY COOL!
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn]
I'm not really comfortable
in that position, but I see
that's where I need to be.
[yawn] [yawn]
There's some idea here that
it's OK to be less aware some
times than others. Yes, in the
physical world, danger is not
always present and you can
sleep sometimes, and not pay
much attention when awake.
Then there are those other times
when if you don't pay FULL attention
RIGHT NOW you will be die quite quickly.
Just because your physical life is not
immediately threatened is not reason
to be LESS AWARE. It just means you
have more freedom to put your attention
11:12 on whatever you like.
If you choose to lower or
constrict your attention
you diminish your life!
So if I'm going to be nervous,
I should be nervous ALL the
time. The physical universe
intermittently DEMANDS my
attention, and I give it. On
the other hand, my personal
universe ALLOWS hexploration
any time I get interested in me.
[yawn] [yawn] [yawn] 11:21
[dog break + snack]
11:44
keep thinking about McKeon
and Kuhn, who seems like a
student of his.
google work to check 12:21
I can't find any personal
relationship, though their
work has obvious similarity
12:22
I seem to have hextroverted
into curious communication,
so I guess this session is
over for now.
THANKS FOR READING!
O
--- )
\
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-
1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
TO $*ELF FUN*D KP'S MAD GAME:
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net
VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
