Saturday, January 28, 2006
Re: session 27/01/06
Date: Sat, 28 Jan 2006 11:16:08 -0800
Subject: Re: session 27/01/06
Newsgroups: alt.ucp,alt.consciousness,alt.meditation,alt.self-improve,alt.spiritual.enhancement,alt.religion.scientology,alt.clearing.technology
From: "KONCHOK.PENDAY"
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REPLY TO: alt.ucp
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Re: session 27/01/06
27/01/06
8.39pm
Now- I am feeling apathetic and mostly quite lazy.
I have got myself a
juicer and started using that. I wanted to go onto a totallya raw food
diet but I am too lazy now to prepare any meals other than simple
juices. Hey the juicer does the chewing for me! I have been designing a
layout of my microtonal scales for a honeycomb keyboard that is being
made for me. The maker tells me that it will posted (shipped) out next
week. There are certain things that a greater understanding of
mathematics would help me with. I have never been good with numbers
really. I wanted to sneak into a sold out outdoor concert yesterday but
could not find anyone to go with. One person had promised to go but
piked out at the last minute which I already knew was going to happen.
OK! Apathy is hexpected!
Franks statements re where he is at havemade me question UCP and doubt it's efficacy.
OK!
I had the opposite reaction!
FRANK *PROVED* UCP WORKS! FAR
BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE SO FAR!
FRANK PROVED UCP WILL TAKE
YOU SOMEWHERE ABOVE TONE 22
where the here and now becomes
just another ETERNAL hexample:
as past and future are irrelevant.
FRANK SHOWED UCP WILL COMPLETE!
IT'S NOT AN ENDLESS CYCLE!
He also went exterior doing ucp!
I wasn't predicting that as a result
of UCP, but I won't complain too
much if it happens to me too!
It has helped me thus far That much is unquestionable
but still when someone who has got so far with somethingabandons it makes me question it too.
========================
FRANK *COMPLETED* UCP!
========================
It GOT him to where
he doesn't need it!
FANTASTIC!
How might it be - I might have the energy and desire to do hard
things and not always take the easiest option.
OK!
Or go where you really want to be, and
take the easiest route that goes there.
CTTN - Now I just do whatever is easiest and rarely put myself out.
OK! Why should you?
Is there anything worth
hexerting yourself for?
In the FS I am able to keep my house tidy and my affairs organised. Now
I am able to wash the juicer or do something asked of me or pay a bill
but as for going to the laundrymat or tidying the house I always put
that stuff off.
Everything vital got done!
PASt - I remember living in a share house and I was really neat. It
must have been because I was worried about what others would have
thought had I left mess everywhere.
Your Compulsive Activity has relaxed, and
you are not yet enthusiasticly playing a new
game. You are in the zero zone doldrums.
CTTN - Now I have no one to look good for or impress and I never
invite people over so I do not care what the place looks like. In the
past compulsively did things to please others such as cleaning etc.
Now I have my own place and I am just responsible for my own mess or
state of affairs.
New ability to do nothing!
How might it be - I might live in a share house with much less
belongings.
CTTN - Now I am not worried about what other people think. Anybody
who I think might judge me harshly about the state of my house I do not
let them in. In the FS I am able to travel easily because I do not have
many belongings. Now I have quite a few big things that would make it
harder for me to travel overseas or even in Australia. In the FS I have
other people around me who help keep a living space clean. Now I am the
only person who can do it and it seems to much for me.
How has it been? - I remember first doing an altered form of UCP with
my old flatmate and how much I enjoyed doing it. And how things came up
that seemed much more hidden than any of the sessions I have done solo.
I agree is seems easier with another witness.
And it has beneficial effect on relationship.
It's easier to focus your attention to talk to
another person. I guess I'm not important
enough to merit my own attention and help?
CTTN - Now I have no one to do UCP with and yet I wish I did.
I wish I had people to do ucp, music, food, sex etc. with!
But I'm enjoying my party on my own as best I can.
Can't wait for the late.
In the
PS I was totally satisfied as I had someone who was interested in me
listening to me. I forgot totally about the process and just
concentrated on my thoughts.
I think their attention helps you focus,
if they're not talking or arguing with you.
Now when I do it on paper I sometimes
correct typos etc. I rewrite sentences. It just takes longer than just
talking.
Yes.
On the other hand I find the written record
very useful to refer to to see where I was.
And scheduling a witness can
mess up your opportunities.
When I do it with the virtual witness I seem to get bored at
around the 40 minute mark and find it very difficult to persevere.
Ever felt like that before?
Were classes about that
long when you were a kid?
Even my written sessions have become hard recently.
EFFORT
Look AT the effort.
That's what blew
me through zero.
Normally I was easily
able to go for about 1.5 hours but now I get bored very quickly and
start thinking about what else I could be doing.
ELSE
SUBSTITUTE
The thought of doing UCP seems really dreary at the moment
Hexcellent!
Your own EFFORT is
staring you in the face.
When UCP itself
becomes an EFFORT,
IT'S REALLY BITING! on
LIABILITY/PRETENSE.
When did you feel
like that before?
and I have put off doing sessions until now.
OK! But NOW you got back in the game!
How are you feeling ? - Now I am looking at the UCP chart to get an
idea of where I might be. Usekess abd apathy seem very apt. But I am
looking at doubt and secrecy too. I really do not know. My attention is
on where I am and whether I am actually making any progress with this.
Since you really don't know,
. . . it sounds like DOUBT!
Sounds like you had a big win,
got up to Apathy, and are now
drifting back down to doubt.
OK!
EFLTB ? - Just after I briefly went way above death I was conscious
that I prematurely decided I was above death. I was looking at the
chart and noticing that some below death pretence identity stuff was
still apparent.
OK!
CTTN - Now I feel like I am not making any progress and according to
the chart. Then I realised that I was not permanently above death and
still had a lot of work to do. Now I do not know what to look at to
improve. Maybe I should look at the pretence of being somewhere on a
chart for prestige or whatever.
Hexcellent!
And at your DOUBT
about where you are!
When the session
looks like your life
you are in the
perfect position
to make progress!
How might I be - Happy to continue looking at my life with UCP even
if I do not progress fast. (like I should if I was in my perfection
pretence.)
CTTN - Now I am frequently stand offish and superior in my bearing
towards others. I recognise it and I know I am doing it but I cannot
seem to let it go entirely yet.
OK. That's a compulsive activity/beingness = valence.
It FEELS LIKE "you". You are in DOUBT about whether
"it's you!" or not. Hexamine your doubt. Earlier Doubt?
Been - I am reminded of doing offsider work with my boss and him
talking about his worldly exploits and things that would be quite
embarrassing to me if I had done them and admitted so to someone else.
Instead I have my arms crossed and listen to what he says like some
kind of detached AUDITOR !
I'M NOT LIKE HIM!
I'M HIS OPPOSITE!
EFLTB ? Yeah when I was a hot shot auditor I was too sane (clear) to
make mistakes or be anything other than perfect. I did not reveal my
flaws because they were inconsistent with being OT. I remember being a
real arrogant wanker desperately trying to maintain the OT pretence.
Shit I still have it!
Hexcellent!
Scientology agressively implants their
valences in you to control your behavior.
Seeing what you are doing
is the first step to changing
your mind, then behavior.
CTTN - Now I view myself as perfect (a new form of OT) and I do not
share any stories of my failings or humiliating things that have
happened to me. If I cannot do something right first time I pretend I
can do it and just do not. For this pathetic sham I have less
experience than I should. I have not really done much.
YOU DISCOVERED THAT!
NEW UNDERSTANDING
If something
looked like I could possibly fail in it I did not do it and did only
those things that I knew I could do. Or else I would compulsively
practice things solo and in private until I had the required level of
perfection for me. Rarely did anything reach that stage.
When you don't know what to say,
you concentrate on how to say it.
When you are burning
with an urgent message
it plays at every chance!
Then I knew I
had failings but the cult viewed me a certain way which I tried to
remain consistent with. People admired me for being OT xyz. Class
whatever auditor. Only I knew that I was not perfect but I tried not
to dwell on that and mostly took the perks of having high status.
What a burden playing that role placed on you!
You had to lie constantly about your very sElf!
Now I
have no status and my superior pretence is laughable around people with
way more experience and ability than me.
OK!
Free from THAT pretense, at least!
How might it be- I might allow myself to fail in public and not let it
worry me. I might allow myself the chance to be bad, and to improve.
Or your attention might be so focused on
reaching the audience with your message
you don't have any attention on failure and
you are a *NATURAL STAR* huge success!
CTTN - Now I am waiting for more perfect conditions to do things that
might never come about.
Deciding NOW IS the time
might just make it perfect?
In the FS I make the best of my time regardless
of the perfections or imperfections. In the FS I try things and help
myself get better by practicing. With others.
Hexcellent!
EOS
9.40pm
Justin
THANKS FOR PLAYING!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
--- )
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
$*ELF FUN*D THE GREAT GAME: LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
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Subject: Re: session 27/01/06
Newsgroups: alt.ucp,alt.consciousness,alt.meditation,alt.self-improve,alt.spiritual.enhancement,alt.religion.scientology,alt.clearing.technology
From: "KONCHOK.PENDAY"
PRIOR POST PROFILE<< com="">
REPLY TO: alt.ucp
NOW DISTRIBUTION<< technology ="=" com=""> wrote:
Re: session 27/01/06
27/01/06
8.39pm
Now- I am feeling apathetic and mostly quite lazy.
I have got myself a
juicer and started using that. I wanted to go onto a totallya raw food
diet but I am too lazy now to prepare any meals other than simple
juices. Hey the juicer does the chewing for me! I have been designing a
layout of my microtonal scales for a honeycomb keyboard that is being
made for me. The maker tells me that it will posted (shipped) out next
week. There are certain things that a greater understanding of
mathematics would help me with. I have never been good with numbers
really. I wanted to sneak into a sold out outdoor concert yesterday but
could not find anyone to go with. One person had promised to go but
piked out at the last minute which I already knew was going to happen.
OK! Apathy is hexpected!
Franks statements re where he is at havemade me question UCP and doubt it's efficacy.
OK!
I had the opposite reaction!
FRANK *PROVED* UCP WORKS! FAR
BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE SO FAR!
FRANK PROVED UCP WILL TAKE
YOU SOMEWHERE ABOVE TONE 22
where the here and now becomes
just another ETERNAL hexample:
as past and future are irrelevant.
FRANK SHOWED UCP WILL COMPLETE!
IT'S NOT AN ENDLESS CYCLE!
He also went exterior doing ucp!
I wasn't predicting that as a result
of UCP, but I won't complain too
much if it happens to me too!
It has helped me thus far That much is unquestionable
but still when someone who has got so far with somethingabandons it makes me question it too.
========================
FRANK *COMPLETED* UCP!
========================
It GOT him to where
he doesn't need it!
FANTASTIC!
How might it be - I might have the energy and desire to do hard
things and not always take the easiest option.
OK!
Or go where you really want to be, and
take the easiest route that goes there.
CTTN - Now I just do whatever is easiest and rarely put myself out.
OK! Why should you?
Is there anything worth
hexerting yourself for?
In the FS I am able to keep my house tidy and my affairs organised. Now
I am able to wash the juicer or do something asked of me or pay a bill
but as for going to the laundrymat or tidying the house I always put
that stuff off.
Everything vital got done!
PASt - I remember living in a share house and I was really neat. It
must have been because I was worried about what others would have
thought had I left mess everywhere.
Your Compulsive Activity has relaxed, and
you are not yet enthusiasticly playing a new
game. You are in the zero zone doldrums.
CTTN - Now I have no one to look good for or impress and I never
invite people over so I do not care what the place looks like. In the
past compulsively did things to please others such as cleaning etc.
Now I have my own place and I am just responsible for my own mess or
state of affairs.
New ability to do nothing!
How might it be - I might live in a share house with much less
belongings.
CTTN - Now I am not worried about what other people think. Anybody
who I think might judge me harshly about the state of my house I do not
let them in. In the FS I am able to travel easily because I do not have
many belongings. Now I have quite a few big things that would make it
harder for me to travel overseas or even in Australia. In the FS I have
other people around me who help keep a living space clean. Now I am the
only person who can do it and it seems to much for me.
How has it been? - I remember first doing an altered form of UCP with
my old flatmate and how much I enjoyed doing it. And how things came up
that seemed much more hidden than any of the sessions I have done solo.
I agree is seems easier with another witness.
And it has beneficial effect on relationship.
It's easier to focus your attention to talk to
another person. I guess I'm not important
enough to merit my own attention and help?
CTTN - Now I have no one to do UCP with and yet I wish I did.
I wish I had people to do ucp, music, food, sex etc. with!
But I'm enjoying my party on my own as best I can.
Can't wait for the late.
In the
PS I was totally satisfied as I had someone who was interested in me
listening to me. I forgot totally about the process and just
concentrated on my thoughts.
I think their attention helps you focus,
if they're not talking or arguing with you.
Now when I do it on paper I sometimes
correct typos etc. I rewrite sentences. It just takes longer than just
talking.
Yes.
On the other hand I find the written record
very useful to refer to to see where I was.
And scheduling a witness can
mess up your opportunities.
When I do it with the virtual witness I seem to get bored at
around the 40 minute mark and find it very difficult to persevere.
Ever felt like that before?
Were classes about that
long when you were a kid?
Even my written sessions have become hard recently.
EFFORT
Look AT the effort.
That's what blew
me through zero.
Normally I was easily
able to go for about 1.5 hours but now I get bored very quickly and
start thinking about what else I could be doing.
ELSE
SUBSTITUTE
The thought of doing UCP seems really dreary at the moment
Hexcellent!
Your own EFFORT is
staring you in the face.
When UCP itself
becomes an EFFORT,
IT'S REALLY BITING! on
LIABILITY/PRETENSE.
When did you feel
like that before?
and I have put off doing sessions until now.
OK! But NOW you got back in the game!
How are you feeling ? - Now I am looking at the UCP chart to get an
idea of where I might be. Usekess abd apathy seem very apt. But I am
looking at doubt and secrecy too. I really do not know. My attention is
on where I am and whether I am actually making any progress with this.
Since you really don't know,
. . . it sounds like DOUBT!
Sounds like you had a big win,
got up to Apathy, and are now
drifting back down to doubt.
OK!
EFLTB ? - Just after I briefly went way above death I was conscious
that I prematurely decided I was above death. I was looking at the
chart and noticing that some below death pretence identity stuff was
still apparent.
OK!
CTTN - Now I feel like I am not making any progress and according to
the chart. Then I realised that I was not permanently above death and
still had a lot of work to do. Now I do not know what to look at to
improve. Maybe I should look at the pretence of being somewhere on a
chart for prestige or whatever.
Hexcellent!
And at your DOUBT
about where you are!
When the session
looks like your life
you are in the
perfect position
to make progress!
How might I be - Happy to continue looking at my life with UCP even
if I do not progress fast. (like I should if I was in my perfection
pretence.)
CTTN - Now I am frequently stand offish and superior in my bearing
towards others. I recognise it and I know I am doing it but I cannot
seem to let it go entirely yet.
OK. That's a compulsive activity/beingness = valence.
It FEELS LIKE "you". You are in DOUBT about whether
"it's you!" or not. Hexamine your doubt. Earlier Doubt?
Been - I am reminded of doing offsider work with my boss and him
talking about his worldly exploits and things that would be quite
embarrassing to me if I had done them and admitted so to someone else.
Instead I have my arms crossed and listen to what he says like some
kind of detached AUDITOR !
I'M NOT LIKE HIM!
I'M HIS OPPOSITE!
EFLTB ? Yeah when I was a hot shot auditor I was too sane (clear) to
make mistakes or be anything other than perfect. I did not reveal my
flaws because they were inconsistent with being OT. I remember being a
real arrogant wanker desperately trying to maintain the OT pretence.
Shit I still have it!
Hexcellent!
Scientology agressively implants their
valences in you to control your behavior.
Seeing what you are doing
is the first step to changing
your mind, then behavior.
CTTN - Now I view myself as perfect (a new form of OT) and I do not
share any stories of my failings or humiliating things that have
happened to me. If I cannot do something right first time I pretend I
can do it and just do not. For this pathetic sham I have less
experience than I should. I have not really done much.
YOU DISCOVERED THAT!
NEW UNDERSTANDING
If something
looked like I could possibly fail in it I did not do it and did only
those things that I knew I could do. Or else I would compulsively
practice things solo and in private until I had the required level of
perfection for me. Rarely did anything reach that stage.
When you don't know what to say,
you concentrate on how to say it.
When you are burning
with an urgent message
it plays at every chance!
Then I knew I
had failings but the cult viewed me a certain way which I tried to
remain consistent with. People admired me for being OT xyz. Class
whatever auditor. Only I knew that I was not perfect but I tried not
to dwell on that and mostly took the perks of having high status.
What a burden playing that role placed on you!
You had to lie constantly about your very sElf!
Now I
have no status and my superior pretence is laughable around people with
way more experience and ability than me.
OK!
Free from THAT pretense, at least!
How might it be- I might allow myself to fail in public and not let it
worry me. I might allow myself the chance to be bad, and to improve.
Or your attention might be so focused on
reaching the audience with your message
you don't have any attention on failure and
you are a *NATURAL STAR* huge success!
CTTN - Now I am waiting for more perfect conditions to do things that
might never come about.
Deciding NOW IS the time
might just make it perfect?
In the FS I make the best of my time regardless
of the perfections or imperfections. In the FS I try things and help
myself get better by practicing. With others.
Hexcellent!
EOS
9.40pm
Justin
THANKS FOR PLAYING!
THANKS FOR WRITING!
O
--- )
KONCHOK PENDAY
KP@net-prophet.net = email
http://net-prophet.net/ = website
alt.ucp = the ucp usenet newsgroup
blogicalthought.blogspot.com = blog
INTEGRATOR: Universal Conscious Plot:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/nuchart15.htm
FORMULATOR: Universal Conscious Practice:
http://net-prophet.net/ucp/ = UCP HOME PAGE
INVENTORevolutionary Architecture System:
SUBS = Simple Universal Building System:
http://net-prophet.net/subs/
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
N-L!GHTENMENT! . . . R!GHT! . . . *NOW!*
*TOTALLY FREE!* @ http://net-prophet.net/ucp/
Unmoderated public usenet newsgroup = alt.ucp
*DO* THE UN!VERSAL CONSC!OUS PRACT!CE!
*COMPARE* PAST AND FUTURE TO P'R'E'SENT!
UCP !S THE *CRUX* OF RAT!ONAL THOUGHT!
THE UCPLOT !S THE ROSETTA STONED
OF UNDERSTANDING CONSC!OUSNESS!
alt.ucp = THE UN!VERS!TY OF CONSC!OUSNESS!
YOU CAN RA!SE YOUR OWN AWARENESS NOW!
ACCELERATE YOUR OWN SP!R!TUAL EVELUTION!
USE THE FREE V!RTUAL W!TNESS ONL!NE NOW!
ONE S!ZE F!TS ALL SELF TAUGHT GOD LESSON!
!NQU!RE W!TH!N, ABOUT BECOMING YOURS'ELF!
P!NNACLE PATHS P!TCH PERFECT PER!METERS!
THE PR!ZE PATH !S A PATTERN: *UCP!*
ENHANCING GLOBAL N-L!GHTENMENT
BY BUILDING BETTER BODH!SATTVAS
S!NCE THE SECOND M!LLENN!UM
ONE BODH!SATTVA AT A T!ME!
*DO* UCP TO KNOW!
alt.ucp posting history online at google.com . . .
http://www.google.com/groups?safe=off&ie=ISO-8859-1&as_ugroup=alt.ucp&lr=&num=100&hl=en
$*ELF FUN*D THE GREAT GAME: LET'S ALL GO SANE RIGHT NOW!
$END $ TO KP@net-prophet.net VIA paypal.com . . . and DO UCP!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
